Joseph: he must feel like a chameleon in a box of smarties

I remember vividly the birth of my own children. Two natural births (although they did not look natural from where I was standing) and one C-Section. I remember how Maya felt so light – as light as a bird in comparison to Ben who was a toddler – and nearly launching her though the ceiling as I lifted her for the first time.  I remember calling around family in the early hours of the morning with the good news. I remember the relief for Ro, and the tiredness. Most of all though, I remember feeling like a spare part. Ours is the generation where fathers were encouraged, expected even to be in the room alongside their partners, rather than pacing the corridors with a cigar in one hand and a bottle of champagne in the other. Overall, I think that this is a good thing. However, whilst I know that Ro wanted me to be there to provide comfort and have my hand squeezed until my knuckles cracked, I felt like a spare part. Of all the people in the room, I was the least qualified or able to bring any advice or relief, apart from sorting out arrangements to ensure that Mum and baby were comfortable, and able to make the journey home.

In truth, I had an easy job of it. Joseph however in the Christmas story, has all this to contend with, plus the anxiety of bonding with a child that was not his and who he had, in effect, adopted. Arrangements before the birth were less than ideal, and it is more than likely given the Palestinian culture at the time, that he would have had to negotiate safe passage from Nazareth to Bethlehem, try to find somewhere to stay, be there for the birth (there is little indication of a midwife). To complicate things further, he had to contend with a visit from the shepherds and no doubt others who wanted to see the infant Jesus as the news spread. Latterly he contends with the visit of the wise men. More than that, he becomes aware that Herod is planning a campaign of ethnic cleansing as he seeks to kill all infant males and quash any threat to his authority and power. Poor Joseph. I think that he must feel like a chameleon in a box of smarties as he manages the situation and tries to adapt. He is different things to different people. He is Mary’s partner (the scriptures speak of Mary as one who he was betrothed to but not yet married to; he is the adopted father to Jesus the Christ-child; he is the breadwinner and provider; and he is the one who, for the sake of the family’s survival, needs to cast a suspicious eye over who visits, and make preparations for them all to travel to Egypt as refugees.

Sometimes, things happen in life that lead us to feel like a chameleon in a box of Smarties. It is such a lovely description and was given to me by a South-African grandparent who drops off and picks up his grandchild up from my son’s school. He always blesses me with a ‘Morning pastor’, said with quite a thick accent. I reply good morning back and ask him how he is. Often, he replies, ‘I am like a rose in the summer!’ But one morning he stopped me, and said, considering our ongoing Brexit nightmare-pantomime-for-the-world-to-see, ‘Your politicians, they must feel like chameleons in a box of smarties.’ I think that he was saying that when faced with a range of options, and thinking about where people should place their loyalties, many of our politicians are in a state of utter confusion. I suspect heavily that some are making decisions based on their own political futures, rather than putting themselves at the service of the country.

There will always be times in life when we must decide what we really stand for, times when we are surrounded, like Joseph, with a range of options. I think that Joseph must have felt like a chameleon in a box of smarties as he discerned who he was and how he would respond to his changing situation. Would he run? No-one would have blamed him for staying for the birth and then disappearing. Thankfully Joseph chooses to do the right thing. He puts the security of the family, and Jesus above all else, and takes on the role of being Jesus’ earthly father. Consequently, I think it a great shame, especially in an age where families are growing ever complex through relationship breakdowns and the emergency of step-relatives, that we do not make more of Joseph’s willingness to take on this new role; a role that will extend through the rest of his life.

This Christmas I pray for all those who find themselves in new situations, particularly those who in committing to a new partner are also taking on roles as a step-father or mother, and for those whose lives who are impacted by political decisions and discussions that leave them vulnerable. Whilst I am remembering the needs of mothers, I am also thinking about the role of men in the Christmas story: in particular, Joseph. Without Joseph’s intervention, the story would, most likely end with the gruesome and untimely death of the Christ-child. However, because Joseph is there, things turn out differently. There are times in our lives when, surrounded by a range of options, and the temptation to look after one’s own interests, that we need to make life-changing decisions about who we are, and the stand that we will make.   

God be with you this Christmas as you negotiate everything that is before you.

 I share this prayer from the Methodist Church website, which I find helpful:

Christmas stress

Lord we all expect so much from the festivities of Christmas.
We always think that other people are having the perfect time
with families round the tree.
But there can be so much stress, Lord. 
We pray for families who only see each other at Christmas:
they may all want to celebrate in quite different ways. 
We think about the empty places at tables 
where loved ones no longer sit. 
We pray for new family groups making their own traditions;
For those in the armed forces  
and others who have to be away from home, 
or just at work.
Lord, help us all to relax and rejoice 
in the true meaning of the season.
Amen.

Peterborough Pioneer Hub: Praise God for a wedding that was not upstaged by the bride.

Yesterday, before finalising my Pentecost Sermon I felt compelled to view the sermon given by Bishop Michael Curry as part of  the Royal Wedding ceremony. I was prompted by Sky’s news video headline, ‘Reactions to THAT sermon’ (sic.), and the sudden realisation that a black preacher from a progressive denomination in the United States, with all of his heritage in tow, would be addressing a white Royal family and assembled guests. This invitation, in itself, said something powerful about how the tapestry of our culture as viewed by members of its highest echelons, is changing for the better. For me, Curry’s sermon was powerful not only because he brought a refreshing style to what would usually be viewed as a ‘traditional’ event, but because of how the Holy Spirit worked in and through him.

By ‘traditional’ I am referring to a style of worship where people’s idea of solemnity stems from the presiding minister adopting a peculiar form of public speaking where liturgy is recited and vowels are accentuated in a way which suggests that God is a million miles away; in an accent – a holy voice – that the presiding would not use in other settings. This caricature is, I admit, the worst representation of what traditional done badly looks like. It conjures up the image of a remote God, one that was so powerfully taken off by Monty Python in the Meaning of Life in portraying the worst of what public school religious services have to offer; ‘Dear God, you’re so very, very, big. Gosh we are all impressed down here, I can tell you….we sing the hymn…O Lord don’t burn us don’t put us in a vat. Don’t lightly fry or roast us, or boil us in chip fat.’ (Not word for word, but I am sure that you get the sense of it). I am not against tradition per se – quite the opposite, I am in favour of it – but the danger within any tradition (including those that are more charismatic) is that congregations mistake style for substance and somehow miss out on the sense of awe. Yet, on Saturday, I felt that despite his excitement and arm waving exuberance (I love a good arm-wave by he way), Curry’s message prevented this. And yes, whilst much could be attributed to Bishop Michael Curry, we must also acknowledge that the Holy Spirit was at work. Not quite as much at work to raise an ‘Amen, Preach it Brother’, response from a white face in the middle of the nave, but there was evidence that God was at work. At least it got a response.

This is not to say that the Spirit absents himself from our worship. Far from it. As far as my own practice goes, I never ask the Holy Spirit to ‘be present’ at the start my services – because I believe that she is always there. I suspect that there is a case to be made that if the conditions are not quite right, the Spirit loiters at the back, or in the lobby – because there is such a thing as resisting or even quenching the Spirit. But she/he is always present, longing to do more. Nevertheless, I do pray that God the Father would make us sensitive to the Holy Spirit’s presence as we reflect on Jesus’ teachings.  We know that the Spirit brings many things; conviction, comfort, help, gifting’s, power, and boldness to name but a few. And yes, there are times where we seem to sense the presence of the Spirit in a much more tangible way.

On Saturday Curry spoke directly to the congregation of how Jesus did not receive and honorary doctorate for dying on the cross (as if the cross is something that can be acknowledged and moved on from, with no real engagement), quoted someone else’s view that Jesus Christ was the greatest revolutionary in human history (a clever way of saying something without having to say it yourself), and how the power of love is such that when we apply it, we can change the world. There was no let-out here, and as Annabel Crab of ABC News pointed out, in terms of Episcopalian preaching, he was barely tapping the accelerator. His points were driven home with reference to how love gave black slaves in the deep South the ability to find the strength to endure and fight for freedom from slavery, and a list of what would change if we did more with the power of love. He stated:

He (Jesus) didn’t die for anything he could get out of it. Jesus did not get an honorary doctorate for dying. He didn’t… he wasn’t getting anything out of it. He gave up his life, he sacrificed his life, for the good of others, for the good of the other, for the wellbeing of the world… for us.

That’s what love is. Love is not selfish and self-centred. Love can be sacrificial, and in so doing, becomes redemptive. And that way of unselfish, sacrificial, redemptive love changes lives, and it can change this world.
“If you don’t believe me, just stop and imagine. Think and imagine a world where love is the way.”

Imagine our homes and families where love is the way. Imagine neighbourhoods and communities where love is the way.

Imagine governments and nations where love is the way. Imagine business and commerce where this love is the way.

Imagine this tired old world where love is the way. When love is the way – unselfish, sacrificial, redemptive.

When love is the way, then no child will go to bed hungry in this world ever again.

When love is the way, we will let justice roll down like a mighty stream and righteousness like an ever-flowing brook.

When love is the way, poverty will become history. When love is the way, the earth will be a sanctuary.

When love is the way, we will lay down our swords and shields, down by the riverside, to study war no more.

When love is the way, there’s plenty good room – plenty good room – for all of God’s children.

“Because when love is the way, we actually treat each other, well… like we are actually family.

All this to a mixed congregation, some of whose ancestors had grown wealthy off the back of slavery, or had sent men and women into battle, who had grown richer whilst the poor became poorer, whose very existence and status had undermined the prospect of equality. Meanwhile, celebrities who were one step removed from Royal life were reminded of the craziness of our world that it can put such emphasis on one vocation over another. I am a fan of football, and of rugby, but it is difficult to see how kicking an inflated pigs bladder around a pitch can make a difference to injustice in the world. On the other hand, fame, notoriety, and celebrity can provide an opportunity to direct people’s attention to charitable needs; and I think it right therefore that David Beckham, Elton John and the rest were in attendance.

Bishop Curry said the word ‘love’ 57 times.

I was particularly interested by how different members of the congregation responded. Media access has allowed the Royal Family to project itself as a global media brand, so it was unsurprising, particularly post Diana, to see media involvement. Yet Sky News employed lip readers who could be attentive to what people were saying as they went in, and whatever one might say about the Bishops sermon, the footage from inside the chapel showed that some of the guests were unable to contain their surprise. I must say that in my own services I am very careful about making judgements on the basis of how people look, because sometimes people can look like they are waiting outside a dentists, and yet they come up to you after the service and say how they found the service helpful, even asking theological questions. Others do engage, but I am pretty much sure that they would engage with anything you gave them. Yet what the guests said to each other as they went in, and the looks on people’s faces during the sermon, were amazing. The Mail Online states, ‘One woman who was speaking on her phone as she walked in was read saying, ‘I am not hungover today, so that’s really good.’ Earl Spencer chats with his wife about a friend who works in Africa. Actor Edris Elba rates the venue as ‘not bad’, Zara Tindall (heavily pregnant) needs the loo (I am not sure that I would have printed that, but it is, at the very least a great leveller). On the way out, Meghan asks Harry if they should kiss – and he says, discreetly, ‘Yes’. Meanwhile, the Queen tells Prince Philip, ‘Keep Waving’. Finally as the couple pass into they Royal gardens, Harry is seen to say. ‘I am ready for a drink now!’

What interests me is the normality of all of this, despite the pomp and circumstance of the occasion, and the guest’s respectability. More interesting were the responses to Bishop Curry’s sermon.  Princess Beatrice was struggling to contain her amusement (or was it excitement at the shakedown). Prince Philips eyebrows almost went through the roof when Michael spoke of Jesus Christ as a revolutionary. Charles and Camilla looked to be in a reflective mood as they heard him speak of the power of love. Harry was nervously twitching. Camilla also seemed to be leafing through the order of service as if she was losing interest, but the lip reading suggests she had simply lost her place.  Meghan was loving every moment of it. On a serious note, it felt to me that despite Bishop Curry having no formal authority here in Britain – he was a guest preacher – he nevertheless spoke with an authority that came from God, leaving people with the understanding that whatever they chose, they had to do something with THAT sermon. The line about Jesus not receiving an honorary doctorate for dying on the cross was particularly powerful. Jesus’ death demands a response. We need to honour Jesus far more than we are honoured. Jesus invites us to give our life in service in response to him, not simply our life in service. 

Finally, Praise God for a wedding that was not upstaged by the bride. I love presiding at weddings, and very few people ask for a church wedding, especially in a Methodist Church, unless God has some kind of spiritual significance to them and the vows that they make. However, it seems to me that in most cases, the groom ends up saying yes to everything for a peaceful life, as relatives amass to make the wedding a perfect day for the bride. All the groom is left to do, in the worst case scenario, is to say ‘yes’ to everything, and ‘I do’, and ‘With God’s help I will’ to everything else. Very often, and despite best intentions, the focus comes off God on the run up to the ceremony, and can be lost. I think that our Anglican and Catholic colleagues may struggle with this more, in that I have a friend who is an Anglican priest, serving in an ornate Church, but rather than looking for God on their wedding day, they are looking for a fairy-tale venue. Today I even heard of churches who were attending Wedding Fayres so that people might be aware of what they can offer.

I rejoice that whatever people may say about the ceremony and the wedding, God remained centre-stage. Interestingly, ABC news suggested that the Bishop stole the ceremony; that he became the main story in a sense; the person that everyone was talking about, rather than the bride. My view is that I would much rather have people talking about the Bishop who spoke of the power of love to transform the world, who reminds the assembled that God is the key to everything, and God is the one to whom we are accountable, rather than what the bride is wearing and how the cleaners are going to get the confetti off the carpet.

Praise God. God Save the Queen, and the Royal Family, and the assembled guests, and us all, so that we might do great things through the power of love, and honour God as God should be honoured.

 

 

 

Peterborough Methodist Circuit of Churches: New Website. We are live as of now, on Pentecost Sunday. Communication is everything. Visit https://www.peterboroughmethodistcircuit.org/

Cleaner, more visual, easy to find information and resources. Immediate links to the Methodist Church’s syndicated feed for Prayer, Bible Study, Weekly Readings. Check out our front page video: we searched for ages to find an image which spoke of what it means to be a circuit of churches. Feedback welcome. Every blessing. Langley.

https://www.peterboroughmethodistcircuit.org/

Peterborough Pioneer Hub: Mission Audit Resources by Helen Crofts. Audit 2, for existing outreach, fresh expressions, and mission projects.

This resource was originally based on a survey I developed for use by MANGO, the Mission and Next Generation Overview Group, serving the Northampton District of the Methodist Church. Helen Crofts has developed this further, to produce an audit that invites churches to examine the original aims of their project and question how this might have changed or developed. In addition, churches are encouraged to question who their project reaches out to. The audit then draws inspiration from the Church Army Research Unit’s Pitsmoor Cycle, to help leaders reflect on how what they offer allows people to feel blessed and therefore belong, to grow in their beliefs, to the point where this impacts their behaviour. Churches are encouraged to examine how their faith and values are underpinned by shared rituals (this may not be overtly religious and could be as simple as sharing a cup of coffee). Crucially, leaders are invited to reflect on how they can help people be ‘bothered’ enough about what they experience, to invite others. Helen ends with the question, ‘How do we continue to invite newcomers?

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Peterborough Pioneer Hub: Mission Audit Resources by Helen Crofts. Appendix – Useful books and resources

…A list of resources helpful to churches who are carrying out the Mission Audits that have been produced by Helen Crofts. Complete with live hyperlinks to web resources.

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Peterborough Pioneer Hub: Mission Audit Resources by Helen Crofts. Audit 1, for local churches. ‘God, what are you saying to us?’

This first audit helps local churches to explore some key questions as they compare their age profile with that of the communities in which they are based. Churches are also invited to consider how they are making the most of their premises, what proportion of their use is dedicated to activities for the local church family, for outreach and mission, and for use by the wider community. The audit also encourages churches to reflect on their relationship with other community groups, and how they can be part of combating poverty, homelessness, and social isolation. It also invites churches to consider how they reach out to men by drawing inspiration from Age UK and AMSA (Australian Men’s Shed Association), and how they encourage people to contribute in a practical way to their mission. The final question suggests that churches explore whether and how they are using the gifts of those who attend.

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Peterborough Pioneer Hub: Mission Audit Resources by Helen Crofts. Introduction

This is the first in a series of four resources, produced by Helen Crofts, Mission Enabler to the Peterborough Methodist Circuit of Churches, and an Advocate of the Peterborough Pioneer Hub. Helen offers these resources to anyone that is looking to help churches and local groups review their ministry and mission. This resource serves as a brief introduction and provides a readable outline of what we mean by ‘church’, ‘discipleship’, and ‘evangelism.’

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In reference to the Methodist Church Statistics for Mission Report 2017. Are we really in a nosedive? A personal response from Planet Peterborough.

As I reflect on this report, the danger is that I become preoccupied with the statistics of decline, rather than overlook the Good News of the growth that we are seeing. There is even a sense in which I struggle to relate the editorial from christantoday.com to our situation here in Peterborough – this states that the Methodist Church is in a numerical nosedive and questions whether we can pull-out in time. Moreover, these figures are not new: I am not shocked. Whilst I do not wish to sound dismissive, the Methodist Church has been in ‘decline’ for the entire of my ministry to date. Despite this, I cannot deny that God is at work. I have seen lives transformed. In my early ministry, one person who converted to Christ stated, ‘I was not happy with who I was becoming. Now I am.’ Others made life-changing decisions, taking up careers that were in line with a sense of calling that God had given them. I have also encouraged people to take up office and they have blossomed through it. Thus, whilst there is decline, much of my time is spent managing growth. In the unlikely event that any of my ministerial colleagues feel that my response is in any way an attempt to big up the Peterborough Circuit, I would like to stress that I see little evidence from across our District that the Methodist Church is flapping like a fish out of water, gasping for air, expending energy as it tries in vain to do something significant. If I really did not have confidence in the Church, if I honestly felt that God was not at work, I would have left years ago.

Here on planet Peterborough whilst we do face challenges, the ground is not rushing up to meet my face; I am not sensing any unusual G-forces, and I do not feel a sense of dread. Whilst I could be in Kubler-Ross’ first stage of grief – which is denial (at being confronted with Death and Dying),  I do recognise the severity of our situation. Despite this, I see our decline as an opportunity to celebrate what is working, rather than lament what is not. As a Church, we need to focus more on inviting people to become involved in our corporate life, and we need to invest in evangelism (which, by the way, is not a swearword, and can be done sensitively).  Even so, the striking thing about Methodism is its adaptability and resilience. This is due, in part, to how it is structured, and how it balances local autonomy with national accountability. As a minister, whilst I identify with the local churches over which I have pastoral charge, my security rests with the Methodist Conference and the circuit in which I am appointed to serve. Chiefly, it is the ‘circuit’ (of churches) who meet as a ‘circuit meeting’ which serves as the principal driver for mission across Peterborough. Thus, even though local churches might close and/or a lack of funding affects staffing options, there is huge opportunity. It is more a case of game-on rather than game-over. By the way, we still have an opening for a part-time Pioneer Team Leader. If you are interested, do get in touch.

Whilst it might be tempting to dismiss the Methodist Conference as an ecclesial-administrative knees-up that is in a perpetual state of deliberation but going nowhere, we would do well to remind ourselves that Conference has made decisions that have been impactful and penetrating – whatever our view on the outcomes; four examples come to mind – Our Calling, Reshaping for Mission, Holiness and Risk, and Fruitful Fields. Those who might be sceptical of the institution, consider yourselves warned. In 2015, I revisited Conference to photograph its proceedings (all ordinands attend: Conference stands to receive them before their ordination). However, my heart sank when I arrived early and surveyed desk upon desk, complete with papers and binders, laid out as far as the eye could see. ‘Is this the powerhouse of the Church?’ I thought to myself. An hour later, during morning worship, and as Conference sung Sing the Faith 662; ‘Have you heard God’s voice: has your heart been stirred?’ I had to stop because I was so touched by the Holy Spirit and moved to tears, that I could no longer see through the viewfinder. By the way, whoever took the photographs of Conference this year did a superb job, and the coverage of the Conference, streamed live on the web, was excellent. If you are interested, it is possible to view the sessions of Conference again. I have had a good look and skipped through. There was not much evidence of death. In fact, I would suggest that the debate on Statistics for Mission should be compulsory viewing for Pioneers as an example of how practical ideas can be sharpened by institutional process.

The crucial question is whether Conference (and we as its ministers who are sent to serve in our circuits by Conference) can work in partnership with others to bring about a change of culture in our local churches. As Stephen Skuce’s research into Reshaping for Mission highlighted, whilst we can promise much on the mission outcomes, and restructure well, the effort counts for little unless it equips our local churches to engage more effectively with their local communities: the wheels need to turn and the rubber must hit the road. Significantly, our memorials on fresh expressions and fundraising probed this issue. Rhetoric on its own is not good enough. Permissions, practice and processes must fall in-line with what Conference decides. The notice of motion, put by Elaine Lindridge, that all churches should be required to construct a mission plan or an end of life plan within two years, and how this developed, is a case in point. The end goal is that local churches should reflect on their mission seriously. The challenge for the Conference is how to develop something that will have a consequence for those who are reluctant to participate. Ministers need more power to their elbow when confronting churches that might be financially rich but performing poorly in a missional sense, living a life where their security comes from funds that sit in a bank on a rainy day (when elsewhere in the circuit it is lashing it down), and not from any real grasp of Methodist purpose. Herein, there may be striking parallels with John Wesley’s Second Sermon, ‘The Almost Christian’, wherein Wesley points to how we all need to guard against having the outward form of religion, but lacking a depth of relationship with Jesus Christ. This makes the difference between our being ‘Almost’ there, rather than ‘Altogether’ there. Our first calling as preachers is to ‘save souls’. Whilst this language may appear a little archaic, our congregations need to remember that their purpose is to do more than keep worship going on a Sunday and shut up shop for the rest of the week, or if we have customers, to leave them to their own devices, assuming that a self-service ‘take it or leave it’ mode of operation will be enough to grow the church. I hope that Conference’s decision that this notice of motion be passed to Methodist Council proves to be a wise one, in that what we need is action, rather than this idea to be kicked into the long grass.

The reality of ministry; managing growth and decline

During my own ministry, I have observed how churches can have periods of stability or decline, followed by periods of significant growth. I have seen three churches close. At other times, new things have emerged. Today, in some of my churches, Jesus declaration that ‘The harvest is plentiful and the workers are few’ has come to fruition. I am co-ordinating efforts in two to welcome newcomers properly. Note that I speak of welcoming, rather than membership. In one, we are co-ordinating ‘meet and greets’, helping newcomers link with me as their minister, and our key pastoral leaders. In the other, I am writing to newcomers who have been with us for some time, sharing our conviction that they are already part of us, letting them know that if they have any questions about faith we are available, and inviting them to think about taking up membership. The challenge rests in meeting each person’s individual needs, rather than giving an ‘Eh up! We are running a faith and membership course if anyone is interested.’ For us, long gone are the days when we can hold a yearly confirmation course and expect a crowd to arrive en masse (as per my Anglican upbringing). This might be appropriate in some places where people have similar needs – and we have used this approach before – but I am not convinced it would be right for us now. Some people are seasoned Methodists who can transfer straight in. Others are committed Christians from other denominational backgrounds who need time to acclimatise to our Methodist way of working (and, I hope, gain the confidence to challenge us about how we operate), whilst others are exploring or are new to the faith. Everyone has a different need. So, we are making sure we welcome people but are meeting their needs individually.

Membership, the principle way in which the church measures commitment to a local congregation, can for a challenging issue for some. Personally, I value everything that membership offers; it enables people to affirm their faith, to assert their belonging, to have a say in decisions, and to take up certain roles in the church. However, some people are not comfortable with this formal sense of belonging. Unpacking this is often complex. For me, the objective is not necessarily membership, but assuring people that whatever they decide, we consider that they are part of us and that we want them to make our church their spiritual home. Unconditional love – which is the love that we want people to experience and share as Christians, can by never, by definition, be conditional on membership. The challenge for anyone who dislikes the membership concept however, is to find an alternative system that fulfils our obligations under charity law whilst preventing trusteeship becoming something that rests, in the worst-case scenario, with a small, powerful, but insular group of leaders who decide on everything and ultimately constrain growth.

In these two churches, whilst we have lost some members who have gone up to glory or moved out of the area, we have made new members – and crucially these new members have taken up leadership roles. I take much encouragement from this. It demonstrates that whilst membership figures might make churches appear static, or even in slight decline, the churches concerned have the capacity to welcome and nurture new talent. To welcome newcomers and to help them find a role in the church, irrespective of whether membership appeals to them or not, requires us to understand our purpose in making disciples, and a willingness to adapt. We may need to sit in a different pew (and I mean this both spiritually and practically), to give way to the voices and opinions of others, or to allow someone to take on a task and do it differently to how we would do it – oh, and more than that – to have the humility to thank them when we realise that they have done it better than us.

Challenging the narrative of closure

As I look back on the last four years in Peterborough, it is not so much declining membership or a lack of commitment that has been the major challenge. Rather, the task has been one of helping churches find a way of operating that works for them, especially if they have fewer people to carry out key tasks. It is not only the smaller churches that struggle in this.

More widely, and throughout my ministry, the challenge has been one of reversing what I now term, ‘The narrative of closure’. This, I feel has been embedded across the connexion since well before the advent of fresh expressions. Unconsciously we seem to have sent out the message that unless we can meet every Sunday morning throughout the year (or in the afternoon if you are in a rural area where farming families shaped their worshipping life around tending the herd), we are somehow not a ‘proper’ church. To this day, when regular Sunday worship ceases to be viable, or when we cannot find enough people to fill the necessary roles, local churches collapse in on themselves and fold. Very often there is simply no energy left to explore questions of how they might retain a presence and a mission. People have nailed themselves to the cross of Christ rather than carried it, or carried it for so long that they can carry it no further and have collapsed under its weight.

Quietly, I have banned talk of ‘closure’ in my circuit, in the sense that if there is no other option but to allow this to happen, then so be it. But nationally, I remain unconvinced that the apparent end of the road is really the end of the road for some of our struggling chapels. There are other options whereby a church can remain open; as a class of another church or as a circuit project for example. Often there is the possibility of allowing a local group to fulfil its godly potential, even though it might be judged as sub-ecclesial by others. The irony, especially when there has been a discussion about how smaller churches might be inhibiting our wider mission (by draining resources) is that sometimes they exhibit a level of resourcefulness and community engagement that is disproportionately higher than larger churches who think too much of themselves. This is certainly true of one of my smaller churches which has been the only one to grow its membership recently and raise over £80,000 to repair its roof. More than this, it has been able to couple its fundraising with community development and mission in a way that is seamless. Another of my smaller churches offers its building as a venue (providing a space where young people from other denominations can meet, and being used by community organisations every day of the week). Its most recent innovation has been to start a Foodbank in partnership with Churches Together. Whilst the future might not be entirely secure, at least we are moving forward with integrity.

What do we do with the statistics, and where might fresh expressions fit?

The report is neutral in its tone, but as one would expect it generated considerable discussion at Conference. The role of the Statistics Office is to collect and present our statistics in an accessible and understandable format, and in this, they have excelled. However, my experience of fresh expressions does not fully resonate with the report, which quite correctly states that membership is not the only means of measuring people’s commitment. I find myself wanting to shout from the rooftops that fresh expressions may have an important role in reinvigorating church life. We cannot airbrush them out of the conversation as some phase that seemed like a good idea at the time, but we have now gotten over. My central argument is that by now we must have approaching 3,000 fresh expressions; something that has been widely celebrated over the past decade. If these groups are following the Fresh Expressions definition, these will be ‘new forms of church intended for those who are not yet members of any church’. The question of how many of these churches have what might be termed ‘ecclesial intent’ formed part of my doctoral thesis and my conclusion was that few were thinking in this way. Nonetheless, Fresh Expressions has given rise to a profound shift in attitudes towards creating new fellowship groups, and new forms of mission. In some cases, fresh expressions provide a lifeline to dedicated Methodists who need more than what their local church offers on a Sunday morning. The section on how the Church is focused on AGAPE attendances (Activities, Groups, Associations, Programmes and Events) is deeply encouraging; we are reaching approaching half-a-million people – a third of this activity is focused on work with children and young people; 37,000 attendances report as fresh expressions and 12.7% of new AGAPE activity is fresh expressions based.

Ensuring that Practice and Discipline is fit for purpose

Herein there remains a deep question about how we take other forms of church seriously (which begs the question ‘What is church?’) and how our process and discipline might unlock the potential that we already have in our midst. My research suggested that this was often lacking, and that the ecclesial development within fresh expressions was inhibited, rather than aided, by our practice, discipline, and local church culture. We require membership to form a new church. A new church requires twelve members (whereas in existing churches, this number can decrease to six). Methodist members can be members of only one church. Conference’s response to the memorial referred to a report which acknowledged that, ‘a number of fresh expressions have become churches in the circuit where they reside’ (but this was not qualified in the original). Whilst I welcome our insights being included in the Church’s ongoing reflection, it seems to me that the Methodist Church, whilst attempting to retain the best of its tradition and discipline, is reluctant to reduce its grip on its established process and disciplines. How we apply and interpret these disciplines is also important. Personally, I like the idea of fresh expressions being subject to a different set of Standing Orders.

At present, I believe that we are neutering fresh expressions rather than learning from them. Whilst fresh expressions can grow from local church initiatives or circuit projects, and can begin from a ‘class meeting’ (small group) construct, the requirement of what they must live up to seems decidedly one-sided. It seems incongruous that the Church can, on the one hand, celebrate fresh expressions and on the other, overlook their potential. Or say, ‘That’s great. But when you look like us (the wider church that is in decline) we will consider you valid’. During my research, I reflected a great deal on how our church culture and process denied fresh expressions the warrant to become anything more than circus sideshows to the main event. Perhaps one of the most troubling conclusions was that whilst a minority within the Methodist Church were sceptical of F(f)resh E(e)xpressions, no one was able to offer an alternative. Now we have reached a tipping point. Notice of Motion 110, adopted by Conference, which encourages circuits to form new societies is an interesting one because this is exactly what we hoped some fresh expressions will aspire to become. I suspect that this suggestion might highlight further how our provision and processes for ecclesial formation are a blunt instrument for our present context. Where are these new members going to come from? What church can spare twelve members to form a new church? Does anyone appreciate, in the case of new members, the length of time it takes to nurture people in faith to the point where they may well consider membership? Whilst it is true that new church councils can be supported by members of existing churches, the basic requirement on the number of members required to form a church still stands, and a member cannot belong to two churches in a legal sense (unless you live in another part of the world for half of the year). Whilst there are some circuits that could plant new congregations using a ‘seeding’ model, in many cases this would deplete what we already have. We need a better model of churchplanting other than merging churches, forming LEP’s, setting up circuit projects to authorise work or designating declining churches as ‘fresh expressions’. Whilst these may be effective in some cases (and it would be good to have published examples), in effect, they by-pass route 1 in Standing Orders.

Thinking ahead

It seems to me that our most significant challenge is to recognise where the success stories are, to learn from them, and to pass the lessons on. Admittedly, this is where Fresh Expressions – the national charity composed of representatives from multiple denominations – is at its weakest. It is strong on vision and examples of the work, but weak on the processes, discussions, and authorisations that have given rise to it. In fairness, this is beyond Fresh Expressions remit, since it is committed to renewing churchplanting across multiple denominations; it does not have to concern itself with the details of how this is delivered in partner Churches. Worse than this – and I say this as a proud supporter of Fresh Expressions vision – the movement has constructed its argument on the premise that the Church is failing in its missionary task and that we need to do something different. Whilst they might be right, this is an unhelpful point to press, because if fresh expressions are to be incorporated into the life of the church, its leaders will need to have confidence that Methodism can indeed embrace them. This is precisely where practitioners, having started in the sunshine, end up stumbling about in the dusk. I am not sure that we need more faith in God. I think that we need to have faith in the Methodist Church, and in ourselves, which is quite a different proposition. One thing that I do know is that we will not encourage this by highlighting our failures. Organisational change – and repentance in the gospel – begins by being honest and recognising that the way we are operating is not right, that we need to change, that we can change if we want to, and that this is our responsibility. Finally, I am reminded that we, as ministers are sent into our circuits by the Conference, and that there is a difference between managing decline, and providing leadership when and where it is needed. Let us pray that what has been discussed and proposed at Cconference will indeed have a real impact locally.

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On The Wireless June edition Finalb

 

Jesus said, “Don’t let your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me.” Monologue in ‘From Peter’s Perspective’…”I pray that they may grow in faith, rather than be suffocated by the anxieties of this life.” Produced for use on the Fifth Sunday of Easter.

I keep thinking back to that conversation when Jesus forgave me and told me to care for the other disciples. I remember the sting of the salt on my face as I wiped my eyes dry. I remember the sense of peace that came with knowing everything was settled, and that surge of tiredness as I let go of my guilt. I remember feeling assured that from that point, Jesus was going to strengthen me. At the same time, I felt a sense of fear – fear of the Lord – as I realised how Jesus had made me responsible for the others. I must not fail.

Until now, I have not been able to take in the rest of what Jesus said. I do remember Him saying that whilst today I am in control of my own destiny, this would change in the future. He said that there would come a time when I would have to stretch out my hands, and that someone else would lead me to where I would not want to go. I am still not quite sure what he meant by that. I shudder at the memory of what Jesus battered body looked like, and the rope burns on his wrists. Does Jesus mean that one day, I will face death just as He did? If so, it does not bear thinking about.

If you had asked me a week ago, I would have said the resurrection is the only thing that defines us. People remember the Essenes because they commit to a life of poverty. People remember the Pharisees for their commitment to the law. People remember the Sadducees for their commitment to the Temple. Meanwhile, we are becoming known as the Christ followers who insist that their leader is not dead. A week ago, still basking in the glory of it all, I would have defined us as the people of the resurrection. Now I am not so sure. You see, the resurrection is only half the story. We cannot celebrate the resurrection without acknowledging that Jesus went through the death. He lived our life, died our death, and bore our griefs. Death and resurrection belong together. At first, this might seem morbid. But this is what has given me comfort as I have questioned what the future holds. If I am killed, I like Jesus will be resurrected. I simply pray that my death is not torturous. If I am taken, I pray that I will be taken quickly. But I do not fear death. None of us does.

Jesus spoke freely and often about the fact that he would be put to death. As I look back I feel humbled – ashamed even – about how we responded, especially when I compare this to the confidence that we have now. The resurrection has secured our faith. I remember when Jesus told us that one day he would have to leave us. ‘Don’t let your hearts be troubled’, He said, ‘Believe in God; believe also in me.’ We lost all sense of proportion. I remember Jesus saying something about His going to heaven and preparing a place for us, and that we would know the way to the place where he was going. But His words made no sense. Thomas became exasperated with Jesus, ‘Lord we do not know where you are going, how can we know the way!’ And then Philip challenged him. He said something like, ‘We’ll believe you when we see this Father in heaven that you keep referring to. Show us the Father!’ Then Jesus berated Philip for his lack of belief. In Jesus mind, Philip had seen enough. How much more did Jesus need to say? How many more miracles did Philip need to see? Meanwhile, I was confused and holding my head in my hands.

I understood where Thomas and Philip were coming from. Until then, we took much of what Jesus said as figurative. He spoke in parables all the time. It was one of the ways in which he used to avoid conflict. Don’t misunderstand me. Jesus was never afraid to confront people – it was simply that if He did so, it would be on his terms. Jesus was a master at speaking in parables, saying enough to allow people to find the truth for themselves, but not so much that he would be arrested. So, often, after Jesus had spoken, we would discuss amongst ourselves whether we thought Jesus meant us to understand Him literally. I remember, on one occasion in the early days, when Jesus declared that he would suffer, be put to death, and then be raised after three days, how I became indignant. I thought he was talking nonsense but he scolded me. ‘Get Behind me Satan’ he said. That put me back in my place.

As we journeyed with Jesus it was easy to accept that he had power over the underworld and all the raging spirits that wreak havoc on us – we had witnessed him calling on God to calm the storm on Galilee. It was easy to accept that God through Jesus could bring healing – we had seen so many healings that we had lost count. It was easy to see that God through Jesus could meet our needs – we had seen him feed five thousand. But we were still unsure, especially when Jesus spoke of his own death, about whether Jesus meant us to understand him literally. It was not until we saw Jesus raise Lazarus from the dead that we began to think this. When we saw how the authorities responded to Him in Jerusalem, the sense of foreboding began to penetrate even deeper. By the time that Mary anointed Jesus’ feet with burial oil, things had become overwhelming. And so, at the beginning of Passover, when Jesus spoke about his dying again, we were all in a very different frame of mind. He said, ‘The hour has come for the Son of Man to be glorified. Very truly I tell you, unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. Anyone who loves their life will lose it, while anyone who hates their life in this world will keep it for eternal life.’

We were beside ourselves. Whilst we accepted that by God’s power, Jesus could raise the dead, the fact that he would not just die, but be executed, seemed to go against all the good that God was doing. And we also began to think about what we stood to lose. Who would lead us? What would become of us? We who had given up so much to follow Jesus? So Jesus’ words of reassurance seemed hollow. As far as Thomas saw it, Jesus had no plan. Philip, ever the practical one, agreed.

I am unconvinced that anyone accepted Jesus’ assurances or his promise that those who believed in Him would do even greater things. That is why I feel so humbled. The resurrection exposed our unbelief. Now we have seen the proof with our own eyes, trusting Jesus is easy. Whilst we might face uncertainties, God has everything in hand. But I pray for those who will, in future, hear those same promises of God, I pray that they will accept what God has to say as a matter of faith. I pray that they will question less than we did. I pray that they will be able to let go of that desire to be in control or to know more than they need to know. I pray this not because this limits God in some way. I pray this so that they will save themselves the grief and panic that we felt. I pray this so that they may grow in faith, rather than be suffocated by the anxieties of this life. And as for us, if death is indeed around the corner, we will not be distracted because we rest secure in the knowledge that death is not the end. Whilst we long for Jesus to be with us, we know that he is present in a different way. We are still receiving reports of how he is appearing to others. We know that he will return, but meanwhile, God is moving so powerfully that we have little time to sit and contemplate.